After getting a 95 on my second test, (which is one point less than Liching's) I am relieved because I know that it means I have pretty much taken care of my final grade, that is, unless I fail real bad in the finals, I'll be in my zone.

Prof. Joyce has already finished all the stuff he has planned for the semester. Now we have decided to go on to Linear Regression. This reminded me of my senior high years when we did exhibition classes with Mr. Wang. We used Mathematica back then, not that I remember any of it now. Those were the days of no worries. So fun.

This is probably the lastest time of the year that I see snow. It's snowing pretty hard outside today. It's like January. I don't know what is wrong with this weather. But I swear if it doesn't get better, then I'll have to  ... not be able to anything about it.

IF everything in life is just a dream, a dream so long that the dreamer is never able to wake up from till he dies. Then what's the meaning of this life when he finally wakes up? What will happen if he remembers every detail of that dream? What if he forgets about it all?

What makes life so interesting? I think it's fear what makes life worth living. People enjoy friendships, but they only fully cherish it because they are afraid of losing it. People work hard on their own duties because they are afraid of being considered incompetent and fired. People try to make the most out of their lives, because they fear death. Imagine we are suddenly cleared of all these troubles, what's life like? Everything that has a start must have an end to it. So does life. A life span of 120 years for human is the maximum. Some say it's short. But what is long? A spell of millions of years is relatively short compared with even the age of earth. What about living forever? Ancient emperors thought about finding the spell of undying life force. But what's everlasing life without imortality?

Sometimes I start questioning my Christian believe. Why do people believe in Jesus? Could there be people who believes in the existence of that omnipotent ONE and the birth and rebirth of Jesus Christ but just doesn't care? The Holy Bible is an accurate historical document as well as a piece of literature artwork with affluency and beauty. Jesus offered us rebirth at judgement day and life forever after worryfree, all on the premise of acknowleging the position of God as the creator of Universe and him as the son of God, the savior of mankind. We are God's Children. But besides admitting ourselves as God's Children, what benefit do we get? IT's like seeking for truth, sometimes we don't immediately see what's good about finding out the truth. What do I believe in God for? I don't see myself as seeking for the everlasting life. Maybe after I figure that out, I can be a more devoted Christian. Right now, I am still growing.